It's Funny...

Wow I can't believe it's been since March! I have a long list of excuses why I have been away from my blog...I just might bore you with a few!

I lost my ability to think clearly when my oldest daughter called me at work to tell me she was pregnant! My oldest is 21, unmarried, at the time with a boy I really disliked and not working at a job I would like to see her at! So I took it VERY hard to say the least. Did I also mention I'm only 40 for crying out loud and I have a 5 year old at home...her sister along with her 8 year old sister...I'm not ready for any more babies!!!!!

So long story short creepy boyfriend dumped my daughter 2 weeks before she delivered her beautiful baby, and didn't even bother to show up for the delivery! Did I mention I dislike this boy?

In July my grandson was born perfectly perfect, and lets just say I'm adjusting. I love him to pieces...and I think I finally can say I'm moving into grandparent hood and stopped kicking and screaming!

Next thing thrown on my plate...just to see if I was still paying attention...My mother became very ill. My mom has suffered from heart trouble most of my life. She had her first open heart surgery 31 years ago. She has had many, many health issues since then. She will be having 2 valves replaced, as well as bypass. My mother is 78...I am very worried!

I have always lived close to my parents by design. Knowing at 10 years old that my mother was only supposed to live another 10 years scared me to death! I feel like I've had her on borrowed time all these years! My parents had me later in life, I was an afterthought, so I always knew I would loose them WAY before I was ready. but you know at 41 I'm still not ready to give Mom up. As you know I lost my Dad 5 years ago and still miss him everyday. The pain isn't as strong, but I still miss him like crazy!

I know that my Mother is ready to go...she lost her oldest son when he was 16 and wanted to go then...since her husband passed she has had a foot on both sides! I am not ready to have her go...she's my best friend...my biggest cheerleader...the one who kicks me in the ass when I take everyone for granted...the one who can always make me laugh when I really don't want to or shouldn't...I can't stand the thought of having to tell my girls grandma is gone because all the things that I said above she is for me she is to them too...so right now I'm just trying to keep myself busy so I don't think of what is to come because it is so painful.

So if you could all say a little extra prayer for my mom I would really appreciate it...her surgery is on Monday September 13th.

So if when you come into the store and you haven't seen my mug, or things seem a little low, or you haven't gotten an email back, the website hasn't been updated, or I didn't call you back, or my bills are late...please forgive me because for awhile I'm only going to be thinking about my family and just trying to get by day to day without collapsing from stress.

I'll be back, I promise!